Stop reading BNF's tweets and thinking that they're talking about you in a bad way. And even if they are, who gives a shit?
If you annoy them or they don't like what you write, then they can fuck off and just not read your stuff.
Other people like it. Just because they're them doesn't mean shit. And they're probably not talking about you in the first place.
Also, you're going through caffeine withdrawals which are making you cranky and depressive. So, you know, huge grain of salt to your responses to things.