Tuesday, January 5, 2010

There Comes a Time...

when one must face reality.

The DRE just sent out an email talking about next years classes, etc. and one of the things she wanted to know was whether or not we (the entire group of teachers was emailed) wanted to continue in this ministry next year.

And I emailed her back and said 'no'.

It's not that I don't love teaching the kids. Much as they occasionally make me want to pull my hair out, they're great.

The fact of the matter is that I can't teach the class while I'm in 'limbo' between Catholicism and Orthodoxy. It's not fair to the kids, and it's not honest for me to teach them why the Pope is capable of infallible teaching, or the sole head of the church, when I don't really believe that he is. It's not honest for me to teach them the Nicene Creed (in the form the Catholic church uses) when I can't justify the filioque (and, confession time, have been dropping it myself for maybe a month now...).

(And just for the record, these are not the only things I'm having issues with, just the only ones that I've had to teach to the kids.)

It's not fair to any of us, and I can't do it anymore. I'm going to finish assisting this year, but after that, I'm done.


  1. Good reasoning. :) I'm sure you've been great for the kids and I'm sure you'll be able to do great things in whichever branch/faith/choose-the-term-that-applies you land in after the limbo-period.

  2. Makes a lot of sense. Good decision. its hard to teach your religion in a religious establishment unless you can agree with what you are saying.

  3. I'll miss the kinder reports, but I totally understand your decision. Makes sense!

    You know when I first read the subject and the first line I was like "Oh no, is Amber shutting down her blog?!" I don't know why that came to mind. Maybe because you've not posted much lately.


  4. Sanil,

    Thanks. I hope I've been good for the kids. I hope they did learn something, at least.

  5. LK,

    I didn't even realize I'd made the decision until she emailed us. So...surprise! :) When I started teaching it wasn't that big of a 'problem', but it's grown, and I don't want to be in the middle of next year, teaching, miserable because I'm not teaching what I believe. So.

  6. Susanne,

    Well, you've still got the rest of this year, which runs for a while. :)

    Hah. I didn't even think of that. Sorry. I guess I just haven't had much to say, lately. I've been adjusting back to being home, which means a 20/30 minute drive as opposed to the 5 minute drive to work from my friends house. So I haven't been able to fit in my nonfiction book in the mornings. I've read three or four books, but aside from the Anita Diamant book and the one I'm reading now, they weren't anything to write home about. I'm working into the new diet/exercise thing, which I'll probably post about tomorrow.


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