when one must face reality.
The DRE just sent out an email talking about next years classes, etc. and one of the things she wanted to know was whether or not we (the entire group of teachers was emailed) wanted to continue in this ministry next year.
And I emailed her back and said 'no'.
It's not that I don't love teaching the kids. Much as they occasionally make me want to pull my hair out, they're great.
The fact of the matter is that I can't teach the class while I'm in 'limbo' between Catholicism and Orthodoxy. It's not fair to the kids, and it's not honest for me to teach them why the Pope is capable of infallible teaching, or the sole head of the church, when I don't really believe that he is. It's not honest for me to teach them the Nicene Creed (in the form the Catholic church uses) when I can't justify the filioque (and, confession time, have been dropping it myself for maybe a month now...).
(And just for the record, these are not the only things I'm having issues with, just the only ones that I've had to teach to the kids.)
It's not fair to any of us, and I can't do it anymore. I'm going to finish assisting this year, but after that, I'm done.