Some days I just don't know what I'm doing

Holy Saturday is in approximately ten weeks. I am not ready for this. I mean, I sort of waver back and forth still, between believing, and not.

Can I do that? Should I? Go through with it, or not? Should I go through with it when I have doubts? If I put it off, it's a whole 'nother year of waiting. And then, sometimes I'm just so *sure*. And, of course, there's the part that says, well, it doesn't matter, just go through with it, because it doesn't hurt anything if you're wrong!

Damn Gemini personality!