So, as some of you may know, I have a slight problem with drinking.
As in, when I start, I kind of have a problem stopping at just the one.
So I decided to stop drinking entirely. I've been good for...wow. A little over two years. I haven't had a drink the whole time. Holy crap.
Well, one of the girls in our office is leaving, and they're having a party for her at a local bar. I said I was going to go, and without thinking about it I was imagining the margarita's I was going to drink. As in, two for one, lots and lots of them.
Two years without having a drink and I want one. Not some burning need, but just: 'we're going to a bar. We must drink alcohol.'
And now, as the day wears on I'm starting to feel sick. Like, headache, nauseous, all I want to do is go lay down with a book sick.
Anyone else think there's a connection?
I addition to the part where I really shouldn't be drinking, I really can't eat any of the bar food, since it's all fried. And then there's the $30 that I don't really need to spend.
So...I'm thinking my subconscious is messing with my body to tell me that I shouldn't go. We're having a little party here at work anyway, and I'll tell her bye here. But I'm thinking hard on not going at all.
eta: and then I just ate something and I don't feel nauseous anymore. But I ate a good lunch, and breakfast, so it's not like I was hungry or anything. What's up with that?